25. My thoughts unedited

Great. So I used that one as a blog, and the first part, and then I like about where all this is going, and somehow it led me through all this deciphering and reading, and even though this is all important, to a blog after all this, if we get to that point, and just put simply, painting is freedom. Look at all the artists that create, that get so much joy out of doing it. Is it like all this overanalyzed business, or is it just pure freedom and joy? Just getting into that zone where you start to paint, where you do disappear and you do start to create because there is no limit. There is no control. There’s just perfect freedom and just exploration and joy, like when a child paints, you know? I mean, they just have fun with it and it goes where it needs to go, based on intelligence, perhaps, but based on freedom, just to be able to create freely. And then you have artists like Van Gogh, where it’s like they’re going through all this suffering and struggle, yet in the same token, they’re creating, and there must be joy. There must be a sacred, peaceful place in it where there must be freedom from pain or suffering. And even somebody I knew personally, they could be going through the most pain ever, and when they drew, they found peace, and they found a place to forget about that for a while. And the true thing about freedom is that, you know, you get to that beautiful place, people are going to see that and maybe experience the whole gamut of what an artist is and how it conveys to a viewer, and the language of, Hey, I created this through freedom and now you’re viewing it and loving it and finding peace in it as well, twofold.

Response:

I think you’ve just uncovered something that could become one of the most meaningful blogs in your entire collection.

And what’s interesting is that it almost contradicts everything we’ve just spent time discussing.

We’ve been examining creativity, artist’s block, self-doubt, the undertaking, perfectionism, expectations, intuition, and the psychology of creating.

We’ve been dissecting the creative process, almost taking it apart to understand how it works.

And then you arrive at a much simpler thought:

Painting Is Freedom.

What if, after all that analysis, the answer is simply to pick up a brush and enjoy yourself?

I love that contrast.

Painting Is Freedom

I see several beautiful ideas coming together here.

1. The Freedom of Not Knowing

Think about a child painting.

They aren’t necessarily thinking about composition, balance, color theory, technique, or whether somebody is going to like what they’re doing.

They’re exploring.

They put something on the paper, look at it, add something else, and follow wherever their imagination takes them.

There’s no predetermined destination.

There’s no pressure to produce something exceptional.

There’s simply the pleasure of creating.

And perhaps adults sometimes lose a little of that freedom because we become so concerned with the outcome.

We learn the rules, develop expectations, acquire experience, and begin judging our work before we’ve even finished making it.

What happened to simply enjoying the process?

2. Finding Freedom Within the Process

This brings us back to your paintbrush observation.

Sometimes you begin with an idea, but once you start painting, something changes.

You become immersed in the activity. You’re no longer thinking about every movement or questioning every decision.

You’re responding to what’s happening in front of you.

One brushstroke leads to another. Colors interact. Shapes emerge. Something unexpected happens.

You enter that place where time seems to disappear.

Psychologists sometimes describe this as flow, but you don’t need a scientific explanation to recognize the experience.

You know when you’re there.

And perhaps that’s one of the greatest rewards of creating: temporarily stepping away from everything else and becoming completely absorbed in something you’re doing.

3. Freedom Within Suffering

This is where your reference to Vincent van Gogh adds another dimension.

Van Gogh’s life involved considerable emotional suffering, yet he continued to create extraordinary work.

We shouldn’t romanticize suffering or suggest that it is necessary for artistic achievement.

But there’s something worth considering about the relationship between creativity and emotional relief.

You’ve personally known someone who could be experiencing tremendous pain and still find a place of peace through drawing.

That tells us something.

Creating doesn’t necessarily eliminate the difficulties we’re experiencing. But it can give us somewhere else to go, mentally and emotionally.

For a while, the world outside becomes less important.

The activity itself becomes a refuge.

And perhaps that refuge is one of the most meaningful forms of freedom.

4. The Twofold Freedom of Art

This is probably my favorite part of what you just described.

The artist creates something through that experience of freedom.

Then somebody else encounters the finished painting.

They might find beauty in it, peace, excitement, nostalgia, curiosity, or something they can’t quite explain.

The viewer doesn’t necessarily know what the artist was thinking or experiencing while creating it.

They don’t have to.

The artwork has taken on another life.

Something that began as a personal experience has become something another person can experience in an entirely different way.

I particularly like this idea:

The artist finds freedom in creating, and the viewer finds something of their own in experiencing what was created.

That’s a beautiful exchange.


Here’s how I see this fitting into The Creative Roadmap

I wouldn’t put this immediately after Artist’s Block — Is It Real?

I’d let the creative roadmap develop first.

We examine the struggle, the uncertainty, the unknown, intuition, and the relationship between conscious and automatic creativity.

Then, after all that exploration, we arrive at:

Painting Is Freedom

Sometimes the greatest joy in creating is simply being free to create.

And there’s an interesting philosophical conclusion waiting for us.

Perhaps we’ve spent so much time trying to understand creativity that we’ve overlooked one of its simplest qualities.

The freedom to create without knowing exactly what we’re creating, without knowing where we’re going, and without needing to justify every decision along the way.

You don’t always need a reason to paint.

You don’t always need an objective.

You don’t even need to know whether the finished painting will be successful.

Sometimes you just need to enjoy the experience.

And maybe that’s something we could all learn from children: the ability to explore without constantly evaluating ourselves.

One last thought

I wouldn’t want this blog to become another analytical discussion about the psychology of painting.

I’d actually make it more emotional, reflective, and personal.

We’ve done the dissecting. We’ve examined the mechanics. We’ve questioned the process.

Now let’s celebrate it.

Because there’s something wonderfully ironic about spending so much time trying to understand the creative process only to arrive at the realization that sometimes the best thing we can do is stop thinking about it and start painting.

Painting Is Freedom.

I think that could be one of the most beautiful conclusions to the entire Creative Roadmap.

Final :

Yes. No, the question for me is, I’m not painting right now, and why are all these things coming to me in such a flow of maybe years of pain and not understanding it. Now I’m arriving at all these things that are part of the process of understanding it, including just getting down to the bottom of it, thinking about pain as freedom and pain. And yes, monetarily we don’t put a price tag on and sell what we’re doing as artists on a business side. But then you have artists like Van Gogh, which the whole irony of it is that they say he didn’t sell anything. He was in a lot of pain, yet he did it to go somewhere else. And then, you know. But it’s funny how I mention that artist, and how you think this is the most fascinating part of the whole exploration, that it ends with that roadmap, so to speak.

Final assessment of the next blogs …

I think there’s something important happening here, and I want to separate it from the blog writing for a moment.

You’re not painting right now. Yet you’re experiencing a tremendous flow of creative thought. Ideas are connecting, one observation is leading to another, and subjects that might have seemed unrelated years ago are suddenly beginning to make sense together.

I wonder whether what you’re experiencing is actually a form of creative discovery in itself.

You’re putting together pieces that may have been separated for years.

Think about the progression of our conversation.

We started with the simple question of running out of blog ideas.

That led to:

  • The unknown and the magic of possibility.
  • Artist’s block and whether it’s real.
  • The difference between self-doubt and the desire to excel.
  • The undertaking versus the ability to accomplish something.
  • The pursuit of perfection.
  • Conscious and automatic creativity.
  • The paintbrush seemingly knowing where it’s going.
  • And finally, painting as freedom.

Look at where we ended up.

We started by questioning why ideas sometimes disappear, and arrived at the possibility that creativity is ultimately about freedom.

That’s quite a journey.

But there’s another contradiction I find fascinating.

You mentioned Van Gogh.

Vincent van Gogh is often remembered for his emotional suffering, his financial difficulties, and the fact that he achieved little commercial success during his lifetime.

Yet he continued painting.

And that raises a question that goes beyond the commercial value of art.

What did painting give him that the outside world couldn’t?

We can talk about the business of art, selling paintings, marketing, pricing, and finding buyers. Those are all realities of being a working artist.

But they don’t necessarily explain why somebody creates in the first place.

Perhaps the commercial side is what happens after the creative experience.

The creative experience itself can be something entirely different.

It can be an escape, an exploration, a personal refuge, a way of processing emotions, or simply a source of joy.

And I think your observation about the person you knew personally is especially meaningful. Someone can be experiencing tremendous pain and still find peace in the act of drawing.

That doesn’t mean suffering creates better art. It means creativity can provide a place where suffering temporarily loses its influence.

And here’s what I think is happening with your blog project.

You may have spent years experiencing things, questioning things, overcoming obstacles, and making observations without necessarily having a framework to connect them.

Now, through writing, you’re giving those experiences some structure.

You’re not necessarily discovering entirely new things. You’re recognizing relationships between things you’ve already experienced.

And perhaps that’s why the ideas are coming so naturally.

You’re no longer just writing about being an artist. You’re examining what being an artist has taught you about being human.

There’s a distinction there.

One thought I’d like to leave you with.

I wouldn’t necessarily make Painting Is Freedom the conclusion of the Creative Roadmap.

I’d make it something even more interesting: a realization that emerges from the journey.

Because after examining all the obstacles, expectations, doubts, ambitions, and uncertainties, you arrive at a wonderfully simple possibility:

What if the whole point of creating was never to overcome every obstacle, achieve perfection, or convince somebody else of your abilities? What if part of the point was simply the freedom to create?

And perhaps the most interesting thing about this moment is that you’re discovering all of this without currently standing in front of a canvas.

You’re experiencing the creative process through reflection, memory, observation, and writing.

Maybe that’s another blog waiting to happen:

The Creative Process Doesn’t Always Look Like Creating.

Sometimes the work happens long before the brush touches the canvas.

And sometimes it takes years before we understand what we’ve been doing all along.